Saturday, January 15, 2011


this week i am being challenged.
i am facing something that i didn't ever expect to have to walk through again.

the best part is that...
today, i am facing it.
looking it in the eye.
and walking through it with grace and dignity.
because, apparently that is how i roll now.

that is pretty effing awesome.

and thank GOD for the people i have around me.
supporting me.
loving me.
laughing with me at the ridiculousness of it all.
and making sure i am taken care of... and taking care of myself.

thank GOD for the fact that today, i am blessed enough not to have to go through it alone.
because this.... this one is not to be done alone.
no way.
too big.
too difficult.
too sad.

so if you are going through something hard... something that you didn't think you could face,
i hope you are as lucky as i am.
to have people in your life who love you.
and to have the soundness of mind and heart to process it for what it is.
and scary.
and painful.
because today, i feel everything.
and i am lucky to be clear enough to do so.


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

my world got flipped upside-down today

and i must never forget how it righted itself.

that's all.

this one is for me.

Saturday, January 1, 2011


tonight i rang in the new year at Disneyland with my sista from another mista.
this was the first year in a long time i did it for me.
i picked the place and Mary was down... so we made it happen.
and it was a great day.
we are in line for our last ride and then it's time for bed.

as usual, the end of one year and the beginning of another, is a time to reflect and refocus.
this last year was probably the worst and the best i have had in a really long time.
and as a result, i have grown immensely... especially over the past months.
some people are no longer a part of my life,
some new people have entered my life in a huge way,
and i am in a completely different place today than i was at this time last year.

if you were to ask me...
i would say that i think i am most grateful for the heartache i endured this past year.
because from the pain, i have been forced to grow in ways i didn't necessarily want to...
and now, on the other side of it all, i am really effin lucky that i was hurting.
because now i am all the more awesome for it.

i can't wait to see what this next year has in store.
i feel great things on the horizon.

2011 is gonna rock my socks off. i can feel it.
and i cannot wait to see what happens.

lots of love to everyone, and happy new year.